Recorded and mixed in Redwood City, CA in 2010 by Paul Fifield.
All instruments played by Paul Fifield except drums, which were generated in Band-In-A-Box. Vocals by Paul Fifield.
This song began as a chord progression I fell in love with. Lyrically, the first few lines sort of bubbled up and the purely fictional account followed (slowly and gradually). This song doesn’t relate to any specific life experience of mine. It’s more of an imaginary ramble across the country in an attempt to erase and reconcile a huge mistake. Sometimes we make mistakes that we can fix, other times we make ones that can’t be fixed. Lonely Spaces finds the storyteller in the middle of the process of hoping to fix a major mistake. - Paul Fifield
Lonely Spaces
© Paul Fifield 2010 All Rights Reserved
This year without you, such an empty feeling, a coast apart and my senses reeling,
I finally knew I had to get your healing, even good days were blue
Once I got over all my hesitation, no point in waitin’ for an invitation
Stuck out my thumb across the nation, dropping in on you
I got as far as Oklahoma, under blazin’ stars on a lonely road
Recalled the pain my leaving had sown, and I couldn't go through
I’ve crossed so many lonely spaces tryin’ to fill an empty heart
Everything I try, tears me up inside, and I am still alone… whoa whoa whoa
I can’t leave you behind, you’re still on my mind
Live within my heart, never will we part, yet I am still alone
I headed up into the mountain states, I had no plan, I just trusted fate
I had the feelin’ I would have to wait ‘til my head got clear
Winter was comin’ – it was comin’ fast, I had no prospects, runnin’ low on cash
Found a part time job slingin’ hash, that’s how I landed here
Oh how I wish I could simply undo the deeds I’ve done, like runnin’ out on you
Return the life that we once knew, and forget this year
I’ve crossed so many lonely spaces tryin’ to fill an empty heart
Everything I try, tears me up inside, and I am still alone… whoa whoa whoa
I can’t leave you behind, you’re still on my mind
Live within my heart, never will we part, yet I am still alone
Ever since I left you, I’ve just kept my pain inside
No confidant, no one to brake my slide
My loneliness surrounds me, though there are people everywhere
There’s not a single soul who seems to care
The note I sent just to say hello, came back to me about a week ago
I guess that shows I’m gonna have to go and take a look around
Don’t have a clue if you’d take me back home, can’t seem to get you on the telephone
Don’t’ even know if you’re on your own, or if you’re still in town
I tell myself that I should face the fact, I don’t deserve to ever get you back
But when I think like that, I can feel a crack open in the ground
I’ve crossed so many lonely spaces tryin’ to fill an empty heart
Everything I try, tears me up inside, and I am still alone… whoa whoa whoa
I can’t leave you behind, you’re still on my mind
Live within my heart, never will we part, yet I am still alone
Live within my heart, never will we part, yet I am still alone
Whoa-whoa-whoa...